I haven't posted on here in a long time, since December. I keep meaning to post here, but then I get distracted by other things, like work, food, or sleep.

I took a couple days off during the week of Christmas, and spent four days at my mom's house in Cambria (4 hours south of Marin). It was a nice getaway from the usual scenery but I won't lie: I spent most of the trip inside the house. It didn't seem like there was much going on in the town itself, and I'm not a beach/nature lover.

I spent New Years inside my apartment, all by myself. I didn't feel like going out and taking my chances with drunken drivers outside, and I wouldn't feel comfortable going to a fireworks gathering, alone. I always feel self-conscious when I go to social gathering by myself. I mean, I will go to a work party (to show work spirit) but I generally don't get invited to many "real" parties. It doesn't help that 95% of the people in the area where I live, are in their 40's, are married, and have kids already.

I'll be spending Valentine's Day inside, all by myself (notice a trend?). I really need to get out more, or maybe move to a place with a younger demographic. I don't enjoy moving though; it's such a hassle to pack up your entire life and relocate. I dreaded it when I had to pack up my stuff last year to move into this apartment.

I'm getting piles of stuff to do at work now. I'm working on two SSIS projects, and then next week I have to work on the ASP project again (the one that no one in my workplace seems to understand). Also, I got assigned four different production support issues, and one of them I didn't understand at all, and the lead developer got on my case in front of my maanger, because I didn't understand what was going on (but in my defense, neither did he).

On Tuesday, at my weekly meeting with the manager, she asked me if I was happy. I wasn't really feeling all that happy but I just pretended I was happy, because I'd rather be unhappy and have a job, than be unemployed right now. I can't keep up this charade forever, but I imagine that this economy isn't going to get better for at least a year (ugh).

Anyways, I had to stay at work from 8 am to 8 p.m. today. I'm hoping that if I go to work early tomorrow, I can finish my production issues, get the bugs fixed with my data import process, and then finish up the export process, then go home at a reasonable hour.