So, there are less than two weeks left before I'm laid off.    I looked around on the net, about websites discussing life and work, and I found this website.

http://www.lifereboot.com/ 

After reading the blog posts on this website, it caused me to think about the risks I've taken in my life.  Which is to say, virtually none.  I've always played it safe.   I don't dare to do something radically different from the status quo.   I'm content with the same old boring day to day existence.   I don't leap for the brass ring, or try to do something difficult or new, out of fear of failure or disapproval. 

I haven't ever had an urge to move to another state, or even another country, to pursue my dreams.  Heck, I'm almost 30 years old, and I'm still trying to figure out what my dreams are.   When I was in high school, I thought I could be a rapper.   I'd spend my nights and weekends writing raps, and recording mix tapes (nothing professional quality).  But I never pursued it seriously, like going to a recording studio, or creating a professional background track.   It was just a hobby for me, something I was afraid to pursue because I thought it wouldn't work out in the long run.   

Then I went to UC Davis, to study English, because I thought I had this dream that I was going to write a great american novel.  Well, after two years of going to UC Davis, I realized that the literary world wasn't for me, so I left UC Davis and went back home to go to College of Marin to find myself.   I messed around with improvisational acting for a year, but again, I didn't pursue it.   

Fast forward five and a half years from that day when I packed up my mattress, computer, and clothes into my grey Volvo Station Wagon and headed back West from Davis, and now I'm finally working at a "real job" in the IT industry, something I can put down on my resume.   

(to be continued)